How to Not Look Crazy



Today after reading and meditating on scripture I began to reflect on where my heart is and the journey it has been taking lately…and really, I could do nothing but laugh and ask God for help.  And I’ll explain why.

Naturally I have a problem asking for assistance sometimes.  If a task is small or “do-able” then I won’t even think about asking someone to help.  I have to be intentional about allowing a guy to take off my coat or help me to move a box that I think isn’t too heavy for me or to open a door for me.  I have to be intentional because I’ve learned what my natural tendency can lead to… me being burden down and looking a mess. lol

The Crazy Woman

I can easily become the woman who is propping a box against my car with my legs so that I can reach in purse for the keys, while holding the phone to my ear with my shoulder, and grasping my water bottle by my teeth…all the while wearing 5 inch heels and shaking my head “no” to someone asking me if I need some assistance. Just crazy! lol… doing way too much and thinking that I’m handling myself accordingly.

You see, I never go out of the house intending to look like the crazy woman I described.  In fact, I try to fit as much as I can into my purse or book bag to make life “easier,” but at some point as I’m walking out of my house I remember that I need this or that or that I should bring some little item “just in case” something happens throughout the day.  I pack more and more until I have no more room left for anything else.  Days like this usually end with my shoulder aching from the weight of my purse and a stiff neck from holding my phone (or whatever else) with my shoulder.

It’s interesting because this morning I saw how that translates to my spiritual life.  I began to think about how free I was just a few months ago.  I reflected on how little pressure I felt about knowing every step to take for my future, getting married, having clothes, being the best cook, losing weight, and so much more.  I wasn’t naive or childish concerning those issues, but I wasn’t carrying them.  I had carefully come to the conclusion that I wasn’t strong enough to carry the weight of my life and had handed it to the One who could.

But! Somewhere down the line I began to hold on to things.  I began to hold on to my car.  I began to pick up my romantic life.  I grasped my physical and emotional well-being as if I had control of them. I began to do this and that…and before you knew it I was weighed down by life’s issues, concerns, past hurts, and anxieties until I just couldn’t take it…and I was broken before God and my friends.

It happens like that sometimes when I’m walking to my car too.  I stumble in my heels and then the box drops, the cell phone slips out of my ear, and everything ends up on the ground.  Thankfully, I decided to go to the ground with all of my issues this time.

Our Hope

I decided to lay before God my heart, my future, my job, my everything.  I have decided that He is the better leader and that I need His help.  I have decided that I need to let Him handle the “small things” because those are the things they weigh me down the easiest.  And you know what? He’s a good Daddy.  He’s going to take care of me and all of my concerns!  He will direct my path.

I was encouraged two days ago when I read this in Acts 17:24-28:

24 The God who made the world and everything in it, being Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in temples made by man,25 nor is he served by human hands, as though he needed anything, since he himself gives to all mankind life and breath and everything. 26 And he made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined allotted periods and the boundaries of their dwelling place, 27 that they should seek God, and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him. Yet he is actually not far from each one of us, 28 for

“‘In him we live and move and have our being; as even some of your own poets have said, ‘For we are indeed his offspring.’”

Praise God! I am a child of the Creator and He needs no help in His leadership.  He has determined my time and season in life and He has measured my boundaries.  He is here and He is my source.  He is a Good Shepherd and I can trust Him!  If that doesn’t bring peace I don’t know what does! :)

So, ladies, trust our Daddy with your baggage.  Allow Him to take off the layers you hide behind and clothe you in His righteousness.  Allow Him to carry the weight of your past hurts and failures.  Allow Him to open the doors in your life.  Trust Him to establish the boundaries of your situations because He is leading us in such a way that we’d be able to turn our hearts towards Him and find Him.

He is God…and He. Is. Good!

Sharona Drake
@sharonadrake

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  • Wow.
  • I too was that "good" girl and based my righteousness on my actions. When I did commit one of those sins you listed (as if I wasn't already sinning with my pride in myself) I went into deep depression because I placed so much weight on being "good." When I realized (like you) that He is good and my righteousness (actions) are like filthy rags it gave me a new freedom. I was a slave to my misguided perceptions and my so called perfection. Christ offered me a freedom based on who He was and not what I did or did not do. He loved me in spite of me. That for me was freeing. Thank you for sharing this post. Now I see that I wasn't the only misguided one...lol...I'm sure there are many more of us. I look forward to reading more of your posts.
  • I am in tears after reading this! This spoke to me! I can relate! Just a while ago my selfishness rose her head and placed pressure on an old friend to be my superhero. God is the only superhero! He is near ready to comfort! Lord you have spoken! May God Bless this ministry!
  • This is a much needed topic in the church today. I dont know whats worse these church floks that fill your head with lies or that christian mingle commercial?
  • Very wise words, son. Hopefully, they are listening with spiritual ears and a heart to obey.